I was thinking that cancer is like an uninvited guest who shows up at your house and won’t leave. Not the type of guest that just does her own thing…helps herself to coffee and makes the bed. The kind that takes over and requires all of your attention. You just want her to go home so your life can get back to normal.
I am finding, even at this early stage of the journey, that sometimes its nice to have cancer-free days. I know I am not cancer-free (yet), but taking a break from all the doctors, research, talking about it, etc. is really nice sometimes.
Yesterday I hung out with the kids and had a pretty normal day. My husband and I had a nice date night (probably the last one we will have in awhile). We actually laughed a lot, more than we have in a long time. We had fun. It was nice to just put cancer on the sidelines for a day.
It really does take over. And it makes you long for the days when the little stresses of day-to-day life seemed important. I guess at some point I will have a new normal and get used to the changes.
It also feels sort of like the calm before the storm. Kind of like when you are pregnant and you don’t know what having a baby will really be like. You have an idea, but you can’t really know until there is a real, live, crying baby in your arms.
Monday I leave for Houston. At MD Anderson we will pretty much be starting from scratch. They do all of their own tests, scans, etc. so it will truly be a second opinion on everything. Very anxious to see what they say.
My mom will meet me in Houston and I am looking forward to spending time with her and my sister.
Happy Sunday XO
P.S. If you are looking for a movie to see, avoid “The Promise” at all costs. It was the only thing playing at the fancy theater and it was soo bad. The kind of bad where you can’t help but giggle during the serious moments. At least we had comfy seats! 🙂